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Introduction [22 May 2006|11:32am]
I'm Liz. I am originally from England, but I have lived in Orlando, Florida since I was 3. I went to University High School and graduated in 2003. I was planning on going to University of Kentucky on a full-paid scholarship, when I found out I was pregnant in August. I wasn't going to be able to go to school and take care of my life while pregnant. I was living with my brother and his fiance at the time in his apartment in Kentucky. After that, around October 3rd, I decided to come back home to be with my family. Well, I found out that my mother and father got divorced. I loved my parents and didn't know why they were doing this to our family. To make things worse, a week after that, my mom's house burned down to the ground, so me, my mom, and 3 of my 6 siblings were without a home. At this time, my dad was already with another woman in another part of Orlando. So after that, we had been searching forever for a place to live. My best friend opened her and her mom's house up for us to stay temporary until things got better. At that time, I was with Jason (the father of my baby).

On October 15, Jason proposed to me, so I thought I was going to marry him since he is the father of Hannah. I was wrong and more things started happening. One night I went to a party with him and his friends. I had a few drinks although I shouldn't have since I was pregnant at the time. The next thing I knew, my ex and his friend were ganging up on me & they hit me on the stomach when at the time I was about 2 months pregnant. About 2 days later, I was involved in a major car wreck. My friend was driving and all I remember was seeing blackness. I was thrown from the car (luckily we hadn't been going too fast). I broke my right foot and neck. Then in January 2004, my mom found out she had breast cancer. I thought that my life wasn't going to get any better.

I grew up going to church up until I was like 13. At the time, I quit going with my mom and dad. I got into the wrong group of people and my life changed dramatically and I took a turn towards hell. I got into drugs, alcohol, smoking, sex...everything that wasn't/isn't what God wants us to do in our lives. On January 15th, my best friend took me to this thing at her church and that night, I became a Christian. I was then 5 months pregnant and she was kicking a lot. At their church service, the preacher gave his speech and then towards the end of the service, he said "If you want to give your life up to Christ, come on down." I was just thinking like it wasn't the time because I felt so ashamed of myself...like thinking who will ever forgive me for my past experiences? Anyhow, whenever the preacher said that, my baby just started kicking more & I was like "Wow, I think she is telling me to go down front." I did and I became a Christian. I was crying a lot, but I didn't know why. I am so glad my best friend & mother were there for me.

Hannah Elizabeth (aka Hannah E) who was born on 3/17/04 is my joy and pride. She's a miracle to my life.

My dad has continued to not talk to me or see Hannah. It's a shame, but whenever he wants to, I'll let him see her. He has to make the effort though because I have already tried so much and it hasn't happened yet.

Our future...
Caleb and I are getting married on December 23, 2006. I can't wait to marry the man of my life. He's been there for me through everything. He doesn't hate me for my past and how I screwed up. Even though he isn't the biological father to Hannah, he is her father now. He loves her to death and plays with her so much...even takes baths with her! It's so precious and amazing to see how far along I've come. I couldn't be more blessed to have the daughter and fiance I have.

Caleb and I decided to adopt a child in July, 2005. We prayed about this for a very long time and we feel that God has led us to adopt a little boy from Zambia, Africa. On November 26, 2005, we got the papers confirming that we can have the little 3 month old boy. We don't know his name yet, but we'll know soon enough. He's in an orphanage right now since both of his parents have already died from HIV/AIDS. Luckily, he did not get the disease from his parents. I have always wanted to adopt a child, and so has Caleb. I have 3 siblings who are adopted and when they heard the news, they were extremely excited! We are so excited and we can't wait to go to Africa in November and bring back our son! It breaks my heart that we cannot get him right now, but with me planning our wedding, we told them it would be best that we come when we are settled down a little bit.

My mother, my best friend, passed away on December 28, 2005. She lost her 2nd battle with breast cancer. Cancer is a hateful thing when it affects you close to home. My mother was there for me, and her other 5 children. We are a close-knit family and the death of our mother brings us pain and suffering, but we know that God is watching out for us. He called another of his angels to be with him. Though we may not understand why, God always has a purpose and reasoning behind any and everything that happens in our lives. May you look over us mother. We need you more...now than ever. RIP.

We have moved to Lexington, Kentucky and I will be going to my dream school, U of KY, starting in January, 2007. =)
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